6.19.2013

SO MANY CHOICES



 Lately when I have been left with my thoughts, I keep feeling a bit overwhelmed. Let me be a bit more honest: this is a fleeting thought I catch myself feeling almost daily.  I live in this world full of opportunity & success practically everywhere! I live in a place where it is so ridiculously easy to start your own business, and I have yet to create my own Etsy shop. I think about all the things I want to create.  I see myself in the future and what I want to be doing. The only problem is the fact that every day, I dream up this new big, bright idea of what I want to do with myself.  I think part of this feeling of being overwhelmed is stemmed from the fact that I create who I am.  In a weird sense I am a little scared by that.  I am in charge, and I am responsible of where I end up.  I am in charge of my success: which is super great, but scary too.  I think I am flooded with so many ideals of myself in my mind, that I am not sure where to go or what path to take.  I look up to people who step forward and do something.  They create a blog, an Etsy shop, heck I even ran into someone who started their own boutique and it has become a crazy success.  I love those stories because they went out and did what they wanted to do, so they could become who they wanted to become (at least I hope that's why they did that).

I guess I feel like there are 10 different paths to who I could be in 5 years, I don't know which one to choose, and because of that I haven't chosen any of them.  Now maybe this is a little too deep of a blog post, but it is important for me to decide what I want to make of myself.

I am trying to be brave and start something, and just try it to see if it can be successful.  I haven't decided what, because I dabble in way too many different things.  What can I say? I just like so many different things, and I think that's okay.  I don't want to stop doing that ever. That is a part of who I am.

I just want to let go of this fear & try something, really try. If only we had more hours in the day, then I wouldn't be so overwhelmed, and I could probably be able to take all 10 different paths.  Hmphhhh. First world problems.  Lets get real though, I would probably still be in this overwhelmed mess with just longer hours in the day.

At the end of the day though, rest assured I am already at my happiest.  I am married to my best friend, and he is at my side.  We will have hard times, I am currently trying to figure out who I am, but we will be happy.  That is one thing I am certain of. I do have so much in my life to be grateful for.

On a lighter note, I hope I can keep this lovely plant alive.  I really like it being in my apartment.






3 comments:

  1. You are not alone. I don't know if that helps, but you really aren't. I know that everyone that you know and love, and who know and love you, would stand behind you and cheer you on, no matter what you decided to do. Succeed or fail.

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  2. I get the same feeling. It seems like I want to get into more than a couple of different jobs in the future. But it really depends on us right? Whether you choose only one or all, as long as you're happy with your choice, then I guess nothing else matters. :)

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  3. I feel overwhelmed like this too sometimes, probably for similar reasons. Like the little racoon that sees a jumble of pretty sparkly things in a jar, puts his hand in, and tries to grab it all. And can't get his stuffed hand back out. Trapped, until he chooses just one sparkly thing and brings it out. Not saying we should choose just one sparkly thing...but it is true that on a daily basis, hour by hour, we're more efficient if we're focused on one thing at a time. Something I keep forgetting. Too often paralyzed by all the options.


    At the very least, you have a beautiful houseplant!! (= I liked your thoughtful post. Lynaea @ EveryDayBloom.com

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